I perceive my healing direction and current spiritual task through my self-awareness. For example, lately I fell sick, my body reminded me to start introspective practice. Also, when I did things, I wouldn't normally do or said things I wouldn't normally say, I saw them as my inner guidance.
For instance, when my healing partner asked me about the past 30 years and how many times I truly respected myself. I think I do, but just few times. So, I looked up the definition of RESPECT. Here it is: 'Respect is a high regard and appreciation for others or things. This includes respecting others' views, beliefs, boundaries, and rights, as well as respecting the environment, culture, and property. Respect reflects understanding, recognition, and politeness towards others and society, and is an important foundation for building and maintaining good interpersonal relationships and social harmony.'
After reading the definition of respect, I realized that I haven't respected myself much, then how come I respect others. Usually, the old me took my time, energy, effort, emotions, and money for granted. Even my own life – “My Being”. I really need to start deeply appreciating myself and all my past experiences.
As spiritual coach, my resume is my life experiences, and the ability to heal is my ability to break through self-limitations and also gradually respect and accept myself. We can truly create the power of healing when we have experienced and integrated ourselves. This is the real power. Power of compassion and love. Respecting myself means consciously recognizing and respecting one's own value, needs, feelings, and boundaries. This includes nurturing and paying attention to one's physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual well-being, as well as respecting one's goals, beliefs, and values. Respecting myself means rejecting self-deprecation, self-denial, or self-sacrifice, and creating a healthy, positive, and fulfilling life. Respecting myself is the key to building self-esteem, self-confidence, and inner balance. Acceptance - Surrender is also another important determination, including accepting my fate (spiritually chosen before birth), and accepting my present self. This is a topic that cannot be fully explained in a short paragraph, but I’d love to share more about self-acceptance later after.
So, have I truly respected myself? I think the present me is willing to choose self-respect now. Let's start to express the truth genuinely.
Ailun,
March 18th, 2024
我自己感知疗愈的方向和阶段课题一定是通过我的觉知。比如，最近生病了，身体的感知提醒我要开始做内观训练了。再比如，我做了几件自己原本不太会做的事情，说了些自己不会讲的话。这些都是自己内心给我的指引。
比如，被我的疗愈伙伴问到过去的三十几年，我真正的尊重自己的次数有几次呢？我想，我有，但一定是很少很少的。于是我翻阅了尊重的定义。如下：“尊重是对他人或事物的高度尊重和重视。这包括尊重他人的观点、信仰、边界和权利，以及对环境、文化和财产的尊重。尊重体现了对他人和社会的理解、认可和礼貌，是建立和维护良好人际关系和社会和谐的重要基础。”
看完了尊重的定义，我意识到自己尊重自己的情况不太多，更别说尊重他人了。平时对自己的时间、精力、付出、情感和金钱觉得理所当然。哪怕是自己的生命-我的存在。真的要开始深深地感激自己以及我过去所有的经历。
作为一个人生导师，我的简历就是我自己的人生履历，疗愈的能力是我们突破自我设限并逐渐自我尊重和接纳的能力。只有自己经历并自洽了，才可以真正的生出相关疗愈的力量。只有这种力量，才是真实的，真实的爱和慈悲的力量。尊重自己意味着对自己的价值、需求、感受和边界有意识地认可和尊重。这包括对自己的身体、心理、情感和精神的滋养和关注，以及对自身目标、信念和价值观的尊重。尊重自己意味着拒绝自我贬低、自我否定或自我牺牲，并且创造一个健康、积极和充实的生活。尊重自己是建立自尊、自信和内在平衡的关键。接纳也是臣服，包括了我接受我的命运（灵性上的投胎前选择），以及当下的自我。这一点一时半会儿讲不完，可以以后专门分享接纳自我。
所以，我真正的尊重自己了么？我想当下的我愿意选择尊重自我了。就从真诚的表达真实开始吧。
爱伦
2024年3月18日
